How do I find friends with social phobia?

I have had a social phobia for a long time, which prevents me from making new friends. I have no problem getting to know new friends. I'm just afraid of this quiet moment when nobody knows what to say. That's why I very rarely go out with strangers.

I currently only have 4 friends which I only see at school twice a week. I love them very much but they are not really friends. I'm in the hospital very often because I have had health problems since autumn. I would like to talk to someone about it because it puts a lot of pressure on me and my life is very limited, but as soon as I want to talk about it, these "friends" (who are between 17 and 19 years old) say that I want attention.

I've finally been fighting my severe depression and I'm doing reasonably well now, but I would like to try more, such as. Going to parties etc. Since I'm already 17 and have not had any experiences. I also want a cool youth where I experience a lot. But at the moment I only experience Netflix in my room because my "friends" are not so interested in trying out new things.

In addition, I'm extremely afraid that I will never meet real friends and will never have a real best friend.

That's why I would like to meet some new people. I just don't know how. Do you have a few ideas?

I would really like to befriend you

So, where do you come from? If you want we can make friends.

Set up a self-help group for those affected similarly and choose one - in REALITY and not on the Internet!

Maybe there's already a corresponding self-help group in your region.