I'm 14, about 1.80 tall and weigh 57 Kg. I'm an introvert, questioning everything I do (if somebody does something I do (even for fun) negative comments I stop doing this or do it secretly like story writing though I love it, and I feel like everyone else (including strangers) is evaluating what I'm doing) and I hate social activities and eating in front of others.
When I eat in front of others, it feels like I'm constantly staring, so I avoid it as much as possible. In the morning I always try to eat in another room or later, I eat as little as possible in school (even when I'm hungry) and then eat my school lunch box in my room for lunch and / or tell my mother that I would not be hungry if she asked me if I would eat with them and / or eat later and dinner I do not eat anymore even if I'm hungry.)
Sometimes I eat way too much (like 5 rolls, even though I'm not hungry, I stop eating when I've eaten everything) and my mother often tells me that I do not eat enough that does not help.
My mother also forces me to eat with them, which is why I take a relatively normal lunch, but I feel extremely uncomfortable and just watch dinner while I'm starving myself.
I live in my room with wattpad and music and keep watching my Netflix series as I eat so my mother thinks I would not eat with them on purpose because I'm addicted (I do not mean to eat with them, but that I'm addicted) and that is why there's a lot of arguing with me and I just pull back further.
Please answer only serious
This is not normal, but also not an extreme mega drama.
You know that you are underweight.
You live too much inside of you, so you think that everyone cares about you when you eat.
Can you eat in front of your reflection, so watch yourself eating?
You have to behave more selfishly. You should not care who looks at you while eating.
