I have the following problem: I'm a person who thinks too much and has not really had a leisure activity since the coronavirus.
I've played PC games for a long time, but I've just lost the desire to gamble for a few years. Before the coronavirus, I spent a lot of time in the gym and studying. Much is no longer possible or online accordingly. I can only watch Netflix and series, Youtube in moderation and otherwise I get bored and spend the time with music and thinking.
I'm only recently in a relationship and my boyfriend is great at gaming and YouTube. As much as he gambles and looks, I can't. Of course we talk a lot and spend time together. I just have the feeling that I want to spend a lot more time with him and he also wants to do other things. I also think it's good that he does other things and pursues interests. Only I find it difficult not to have his attention at this point. As I said at the beginning, I just think too much. In theory, I could think all night.
The worst thoughts come to me about cheating etc and just think that everything will go wrong. Then I'm also afraid that at some point he will not be interested in me. Much is really just exaggerated and comes from my past relationships, among other things. I really love him very much and don't want to lose him. I just find it very difficult to look for new hobbies at the moment. On top of that I would have to learn to forget it for a moment, without being afraid that something would happen.
I will of course talk to him about it, but I would also appreciate your opinions and tips.
Sounds like meditation won't hurt you to discipline your mind a bit.
