What to do (grief)

Am 15 has never been in love and have recently found a sweet guy but well have no contact and only knows in which place he lives

and otherwise stop over insta

icj somehow feel alone and yes I would like to cuddle and watch netflix

But then, on the other hand, I'm afraid of being hurt when I get involved with so

feel easy iwi alone and lately put everything on me

And I haven't had moments like this for a month (I also managed not to scratch)

keep trying but I'm still very lonely

my friends can't make out right now

I feel the same way, don't have anyone to cuddle