Hey okay where do I start I'm a girl and I'm 15 years old. I have something like an obsessive-compulsive disorder or pronounced tics. For example, I always have to put objects down exactly the same way or tap them 19 times. My disorder also forbids me to eat yogurt or chips or kohlrabi and some other things. In addition, I'm not allowed to watch Netflix or like any pictures on Instagram, otherwise something bad will happen. There must never be anything made of fabric on the floor of my room. These are a few examples of all of my problems. All of this makes no sense at all because everything is pretty disjointed, so it's not that I just can't eat green foods for example. And my problem is not at all that I absolutely have to do these ticks, but I do them to avoid bad luck. Recently I tried to ignore all of my ticks. I managed to do that for 2 weeks, but a lot of bad things happened in those two weeks. I was just unlucky. For example, I wrote a 5 on a school assignment and my grandma had an accident. I also had problems with my best friend and as soon as I started all my rituals again it was over and a lot of positive things happened to me again. I know that it can't actually be, but I've noticed such a serious difference that it can't be a coincidence. The best thing for me would be to go to a psychologist, but I don't want to talk to my parents about it and it's also very expensive. I don't know what to do anymore because I'm afraid of doing something every day because I think which ticks I will have to use again. That probably doesn't sound too bad to eich because the world won't end with a five and my grandma is still alive, but I just want to be able to do all the things again that everyone else likes to do without being punished and enjoy my life!
Serious answers only, please!
I have had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder for 3 years. I can tell you for sure that you are not alone there. The trouble telling you this is your mind. Dedicate yourself to the positive. Say, for example, if I do this and that and then a positive event eventually goes away, for me it just takes a little longer. Lg
Try ignoring them for longer (a couple of months, for example). You will notice that good things also happen during this period. The best thing to do is to write it down, something good every day that happened. That helps to think positively. If it still doesn't stop, really see the doctor.
I think professional help would be best
I call that a curse and I mustn't be proud of something, otherwise it will be taken from me…
it is probably the envy of others
But I'm afraid of what will happen then or what bad things and I'm afraid that I will then lose everything
You know, the likelihood of this is extremely small. You did it once before. You can do it again! Or pray. Or talk to friends about it. You will not lose everything! Believe me!
If it is so stressful for you, a visit to a psychologist would be best. Maybe there will be more ticks. And such severe tics affect life enormously. The fact that you wrote the 5 is not directly because you suppressed the ticks. And the fact that an accident happened is not because you suppressed it, but it is because of the carelessness of your grandma. You wrote 5 because you were driving yourself crazy. You assume the worst that could happen and that will happen. If you had stayed calm you would have been able to prepare better and learn better.
I also know a little about the ticks. Not as blatant as you, but still there. I lock my door two times. And at the end I press the key in the locking direction until a depression is formed on my thumb from pressing. Then I go down 5 floors and always feel the hollow so that I know below that I have locked. If I forget the ritual with the hollow upstairs, then I go up 5 floors again only to find that it is double-locked. But then I don't repeat the ritual with the hollow, but the anger that I had to run twice lasts until the end of work. The trigger was that I forgot to lock the lock once and my cats were doing gymnastics in the hallway and the door was open and everyone could have walked in and out. The uncertainty created this tic. I don't have any cats now, but the tic has remained.
I talked to my family doctor about it. He also said that as long as it only sticks to this one tick, it's OK, it doesn't significantly affect life. But he said that if there should be more ticks, then we have to see where that comes from so that life is not further impaired. And I think he's right about that.
