Should i change Am I being exploited somewhere? Do I have too strong trust problems?

So I have 2 closer friends. And somehow nobody ever answers or only sometimes and then messages come that are more related to things when they need something.

So first a little about the two friends and me. Besides me and girlfriend 2, girlfriend 1 also has people in the village with whom she often meets. She also has a close friend with whom she often speaks on the phone and writes. And if, for example, a boy wrote to her, she usually sends it to her and me with the message, what should I write? "(At least for me, I don't know that with the other one) She never actually speaks to me on the phone and rarely just writes So. She is also still good with the steady girlfriend of girlfriend 2 (I've never really written with her, I'm somehow too stupid / shy about something like that), which is why the three of them met recently.

Then girlfriend 2 also has a lot of friends in the village (we don't live in the same place) with whom she often goes drinking (jz less because of corona, but yes) and yes she still has people from her hobby. We only write from time to time when she is feeling bad and I just want to help, I'm grateful that she confides her problems to me, or from time to time we send TikToks to each other, but we're probably 3 a week.

And now me. Well, I only have the two (I get along well with my cousin, but it's kind of like a family). I wrote something to our group earlier but it was ignored (girlfriend 1 is active on Snapchat). I find it difficult to meet new people. And to entrust them with my problems, they have never really asked, but neither do I. Yes, no plan, I never get messages all day and then in the evening it's just something like, omg, he wrote me what should I answer " thinks it's good that she tells me but no plan.

Somehow I feel alone and not good enough (which is why I do certain things that nobody knows and are part of my problems). They know that I don't do anything all day but watch Netflix but somehow it doesn't come. I'm afraid that we will diverge even more or that I will move away from them, since we're now also in different groups and yes, if the two of them get along so well with the boyfriend of the one.

I also have the feeling as soon as I tell something (even if it is unnecessary) there's never an answer or only rarely. It is then always ignored and at some point you come up with another topic (I never ignore anything and answer everything)

Possibly. You shouldn't necessarily call these girls close friends because they seem to be less interested in your friendly relationship than you are. Even if it sounds a little unfriendly.

With that I would actually like to say that you should possibly concentrate your energy on other people (which does not mean that you should break off contact with your friends, you should only shift them to a lower level) it would be people who would be potential good friends, but with whom you haven't dealt much yet.

The same interests often facilitate a friendly relationship. So you have an exchange topic that really interests both parties. Or a specific interest group - whatever you might be interested in. This is of course not mandatory. But it would be an advantage.

Otherwise, friends can be found on the Internet, even if it sounds strange. I've also met really cool, emphatic people on the Internet, which has resulted in real friendships. This is actually a good way to go, especially if you are shy.

However, I have to say that friendships are often only temporary and the emotional connection to people can change again and again. You don't often find really good friends.

Otherwise you should also be aware that the behavior of these girls is not necessarily up to you, but maybe just the interests are too different or you are simply not on the same wavelength.