So I have the following problem for about 2 years or a strange habit, and it is true that when I watch a movie or a series on Internet sites surfing or even with a song a funny, romantic… Sentence notice the I like it, write it down to me, hoping to memorize it and use it later in everyday life. Mostly I visualize myself reading or listening to a particular situation when I like a sentence reading. Scenarios such as making girls laugh or being overly romantic or finally able to share my opinion with other people and what I want.
That's what I suspect during my schooldays, when I had a whole lot of spell-bound sentences, because I was unsure myself that in my work that could be so beautifully formulated.
This initial habit then spread to my life. Often it has happened in my everyday life, that I simply could not express myself in conversations as I wanted to and partly during a conversation complete thoughtlessness prevailed in my head, because I did not know what to say next. In movies and series, the characters have always expressed perfect and received a certain reaction with the other characters. So I started copying these sentences and using them in certain situations in my life to get the response I wanted and to be more positive. (funny, romantic, punchy, strong in speech)
The whole thing has now but completely out of control, so that I have already written several hundred pages with some sentences and every time there's a kind of compulsion, if I read a sentence or hear the re-read or Netflix rewind and me the sentence again to hear. So it may be that for a series that takes 45 minutes lasting up to 3 hours for a series, which is quite a time waster. I make it clear to myself again and again that nothing brings anything, but it can't switch off.
Do I have to be a therapist because of obsessional thoughts or can I solve the problem alone and why am I ticking like that? Is it because I feel insecure in conversational situations or because I'm a control person and want to have everything under control?
I would be very grateful for helpful answers
That sounds like compulsive thoughts. It would help if you ask your family doctor. This could determine if a therapy is a possible treatment for you.
I think it's important to know how your behavior is when you force yourself not to rewind or simply not write it down. It seems to be an extreme habit for you.
But it does not necessarily have to be something that needs to be treated. Sometimes you can adjust your behavior yourself.
What do you think, what happens if you do not rewind and listen to it again?
I always play with the idea that I miss a chance to better express myself in certain situations. As an example, I take the bachelor of yesterday ran. I have often experienced emotional moments where there was simply silence, because something in my head blocked me, so I had no thoughts and I could not say anything. So yesterday I wrote down all the emotional and beautiful sounding sentences to be better prepared. The annoying: I could not rewind because I was not sitting alone in front of the TV. Every time I could no longer write down a sentence, I felt I had missed something.
The crazy thing is that I'm not even interested in the show but only in the phrases, as they always have a positive effect on the women and I assume that they could work in my romantic situations as well.
I do not mean that. What happens at the moment where you can't write that down. What are your thoughts then?
For example "if I do not write that now I will die lonely"? What happens to you at the moment?
My thoughts are rather that I miss a chance to express myself in a certain situation not so well, and to be able to represent. Physically, this is noticeable by a tingling sensation on the body and a pressure in the abdominal area.
