I don't know what's going on either.
We usually hang eggs everywhere, paint eggs before Easter. Then my grandparents come and we have a nice day. There are baskets filled with sweets in the garden and I'm looking forward to this day.
Now I'm pissed off that it's Easter. I didn't even notice. I was awake until 4 a.m. And I didn't know it by then. This morning I wake up and in every possible WhatsApp status: FrOHe OSteRn…
I didn't even notice and absolutely don't feel like it. My attitude towards it is simple:
Yes stupid Jesus just piss you. Go die again, you're unnecessary anyway and probably never existed anyway. Why should I believe testimony that crazy idiots have probably gone mad? (I don't generally believe in God, etc.) Auvh I think why my grandparents can't come. My family has not been outside for 2 weeks and my grandparents are only in the forest or shopping. My father is in greater danger of corona than she is anyway…
I don't know why I'm like that. I would normally accept that completely and, as always, look forward to Easter. And I wouldn't wake up, read the statuses and get aggressive and want to start crying…
I guess that everything is so irritating because of covid 19 and now, just because Easter is canceled this year, I have problems with my (probable) depression because of such a little thing…
What could be the cause of it? 😬 I don't want to mess up my parents' day: what should I do today? Should I just stay up there and watch Netflix and leave my parents alone so they can at least have fun? Or what should I do and what might be the cause?
Stay in your room and let your family have fun. You don't have to spoil their mood.
That you think about your own religion and talk about Jesus is almost disrespectful and hypocritical… But well, it may be that you are just in a bad mood due to the whole situation in Germany. Sometimes you just don't feel like doing traditional things, that is completely understandable and normal and actually there's no real cause of it unless you are obsessed with the devil.
You can stay upstairs, wallowing in your bad mood, or you can go downstairs and make the most of it with your parents. Call your grandparents, they will be happy.
I generally don't believe in my belief. I'm only there because I'm too lazy to make big n drama. I don't believe that there's or has ever been a God or Jesus 🤷🏼♀️ Take part of my own belief and somehow still believe a bit of the Buddhist.
I can't say much about that because I'm a Muslim myself and I don't really know about "your" religion.
What do your parents say about that?
Yes is a bit confusing but this "religion" is mostly a belief in life after death. How and what happens there. I prefer to explain the creation scientifically. 😬
I live alone.
The cause will be Corona with the limitations of the contacts. This can hit your mind for a long time. In addition, it is always a way of getting used to it, precisely because this Easter was different than the years before.
