So I have 2 closer friends. And somehow nobody ever answers or only sometimes and then messages come that are more related to things when they need something.
So first a little bit about the two friends and me. In addition to me and girlfriend 2, girlfriend 1 also has people in the village with whom she often meets. She also has a close friend with whom she often speaks on the phone and writes. And if, for example, a boy wrote to her, she usually sends it to her and me with the message, what should I write? " So. She is also still good with the steady girlfriend of girlfriend 2 (I've never really written with her, I'm somehow too stupid / shy about something like that), which is why the three of them met recently.
Then girlfriend 2 also has a lot of friends in the village (we don't live in the same place) with whom she often goes drinking (jz less because of corona, but yes) and yes she still has people from her hobby. We only write from time to time when she is in a bad way and I just want to help, I'm grateful that she confides her problems to me, or every now and then we send each other TikToks, but we're probably 3 a week.
And now me. Well, I only have the two (I get along well with my cousin, but it's kind of like a family). I wrote something to our group earlier but it was ignored (girlfriend 1 is active on Snapchat). I find it difficult to meet new people. And to entrust them with my problems, they have never really asked questions, but I don't show them either. Yes, no plan, I never get messages all day and then in the evening it's only like, omg, he wrote me what should I answer ". Of course I like to help, no boys write to me (the girlfriend 1 sehr a lot) and thinks it's good that she tells me but no plan.
Somehow I feel alone and not good enough (which is why I do certain things that nobody knows and are part of my problems). They know that I don't do anything all day but watch Netflix but somehow it doesn't come I'm afraid that we will diverge even more or that I will move away from them, since we're now also in different groups and yes, if the two of them get along so well with the boyfriend of the one.
Maybe you should get in touch with them from time to time, because you can't expect everyone to get in touch with you all the time. If you want to be better friends with them again, you can ask if they want to meet you. Maybe you can tell girlfriend 1 some secret, then the trust is greater. If you notice that it won't work anymore, then you shouldn't cling to the friendships too much, maybe you just drifted apart. Happened to me a few months ago too. You said that it was difficult for you to make new contacts, you could look for a hobby or several, there you can also find like-minded people.