I'm 22 and feel like I've been shivering the last 4 years of my life.
Have after graduation something back and forth studied (3 semester) and 4 months ago, an education started as MFA. In the vocational school, I realized then that one is really under-challenged as a high school graduate. Then the trouble started at work. (Irrelevant long story)
Was asked by the Cheff to cancel. What I did. Now I work part-time at a temporary employment company. Would apply again for a degree but in which subject, I do not know. I'm not interested in anything, you could say. I was at the Employment Agency in February of this year, but that did absolutely nothing.
I used to feel 100 interests (languages, cultures, drawing, singing, sports, writing, fashion and more) and today I stand there and consider myself absolutely talent free. I'm not interested in anything. Hobbies have been lost over time. When I tried to revive the "drawing" hobby, I was just disappointed. This is how I'm with everything. I start something and then I'm disappointed.
"Do not expect so much from you."
"No master has fallen from the sky yet."
Do I always get to hear and then? Bring me nothing, is neither hobby nor study subject so I stick to the same point and if I manage to solve myself, it is almost guaranteed that I arrive in a short time again at the same point.
I've already got psychiatric help and was then diagnosed super-fast with ADD. "Take 5 drops after work but then no more driving." Was it called and what are they for? "So you can concentrate better." on what? Netflix? I do not take the drops, did not even pick them up from the pharmacy. I feel crazy.
I feel like an animal that only lives to reproduce and then die. But even I do not want that, kids are not my thing.
I can't do anything, I do not like anything and I just want one thing - get out of this life.
Thanks for listening. Has anyone made it out of this hole? As?
I felt the same way many years ago. After graduation, I went to university and I studied there for almost 5 years without having a (meaningful) degree in my pocket.
I then sought an education and then continued my education.
The vocational school has me completely under-challenged, but I did not care. At some point the school, or the training is over and I could start.
I would not recommend a degree to you. Why? You seem to have no interests and no inner drive. You would then drop the study again.
What you need is training, where the instructor sometimes kick your but.
Has anyone made it out of this hole? As?
I have realized that I can't sink into self-pity and have given gas.
Try Swordplay (HEMA). Keep watching Youtube videos (eg from Schola Gladiatoria) until you can't wait to get a sword yourself. And then find a group near you on the internet.
Apart from that, good psychotherapy or good personal conversations with a friend would be very helpful. But if you get involved in sword fighting, maybe that's enough therapy.
I sometimes feel like you and I've had bad times too. For me personally, it probably comes from the fact that I disagree with our society back and forth. Neither about what an average life should look like nor how we treat others and our environment.
I have found something in the sword fight that I enjoy, through which I get to know myself and others on completely new, deeper levels and in which I meet numerous people who share my values and try to look after themselves, their environment and their environment and to live in a way that really does them good for a long time.
If sword fighting is not the right thing to do, you may find something else, similar, that can give you all that.
That's exactly what I see with society.
(Irrelevant long story)
Well, maybe not exactly that. How do you handle requirements in general? Especially here I see many problem cases that do not make it in the study and not in the profession, because they just do not manage to grow up. These are often eternal children who have been made too easy in their parents' home. Can that be the case with you? Sure, it's nice if the profession or study is fun. But the reality is that the fun factor in the dream job and study account for a maximum of 50%. The rest is conscientiousness and bite. Can it be that you do not have that?
you write, you were under-challenged as a high school graduate. And then the trouble started at work? I do not quite understand the connection. Why is there annoyance at work because you are under-challenged at school? Strange.
But no matter. Turn to a psych. Psychotherapists. The psychiatrist is the wrong port of call because he does not do therapy. You do not need a transfer, card is enough.
Undercharge at school and trouble at work were two different things. No hassle on the part of the school. I had a quarrel with a colleague who thought I had personally attacked her. And I was the one who cried and screamed.
In that case, I would really urge you to gradually find an environment of friends, acquaintances from hobbies, activism, etc. Where people are more likely to share your values and where you can engage in shaping the world as you think it is good.
Of course, this is usually only possible on a small scale, but more is not necessary to do well for yourself and your closest environment.
I think the most important thing in general, and probably in your case, is that you can do something that you like and that makes sense with other people you like. And sense is of course something very subjective. Nature knows no "sense" or "purpose". We humans value things according to their purpose because of their potential to be beneficial to our goals, whatever these may be.
Have you been fencing?
